I ask for manhood. He touches my ego.

I ask for manhood. He holds my hand and walks me through two days of hell and on the other side shows me what a restriction and a knife my ego has been in relationships. During one of the nights, where i laid there in physical heart ache for no apparent reason, God showed me a vision of me laying on a hosiptal bed during surgery, as He sat next to me holding my hand saying "its all going to be better tommorow." He is so good. Its because of that, that I'm willing to go through the process at whatever the cost.